My Career Choice

I have been working since I was 16 years old. Every summer, winter, and spring break is spent working not having fun. I'd rather make money than go traveling or do something that will kill my bank account. Amazingly, I am still at my first part time job. This will be my fifth year working there and while it isn't a hard job--it does get quite boring. Not to mention that I feel incredibly degraded and hate the feeling of having to stamp down any retort to defend myself when customers are being rude to me for no apparent reason. I also am just a regular worker albeit one who has been there longer than most of the other employees. But it gets annoying when your supervisors are either 1) people who are the same age as you or 2) people who are younger. I know that it's just a job but I really hate being told what to do especially how to do my job when I'm more competent than they are. Then there's my job at school where it's pretty easy but I still have to deal with stupid shit from drunk college students.

I know everyone goes to college to gain credentials to get a "real job." Everyone expects to get a "real job" with an actual salary that will make an impact. But I really can't picture myself working FOR anyone. It just doesn't feel right and I don't know if I can take anymore monotonous and repetitive tasks while under the supervision of idiots.

If I forget about everything else. . .I'd want to run my own business. Work for myself. Have no boss to answer to except me.

Here's how I rationalize this, if worse comes to worse I'll have to live at home for a while working at my part time job anyway. That isn't bad at all. I can think of many more worse scenarios. I just want to try this. I want to go beyond my comfort zone and think outside the box. Yes, I am a sociology major but that doesn't mean I can't make a life for myself doing exactly what I want without having to worry about my finances. Just because everyone else tells me or likes to shove their assumptions in face doesn't mean that it's true. I mean, yeah, I acknowledge that finding a job and/or running my own business won't be easy but seriously what else am I going to do but try?

Just damn try.

Be who you are and say what you feel. . .

Because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. :)

I wish I could say that this post and future ones will be full of intelligent and witty remarks. That I'll have something profound to say every single time. That they'll be free of grammar and spelling errors. But they won't. I refuse to pretend to be someone I'm not. You're going to be getting me as I am. Take it or leave it.

Now then. I have one week before I move into college--PRAISE ANY/EVERY SINGLE DEITY ABOVE IN THIS UNIVERSE.

This summer blew. Seriously sucked ass. I don't know what else to say. Stuck back in my boring hometown with nothing to do. Worked more hours than I'd like at my part time job where I do not get paid enough to be treated like trash by self-absorbed customers. I wasted May, June, July, and August! Four whole fucking months. What the hell did I do? Oh let's see. . . .NOTHING.

Damn it. Damn. Double damn. Triple damn. Argh. Seriously? I remember back in March and April I was so looking forward to this summer and believing that this was going to be the MOST PRODUCTIVE SUMMER EVAR. Nope. Didn't happen. I'm so upset and pissed at myself.

I want this upcoming school year to be the best I have. I want to accomplish the goals I have for myself. I don't want to quit and bitch about not getting anything done. It's not happening.

Before I move in next Tuesday, I need to two things. 1) Get myself organized and priorities straightened out. 2) Figure and outline a battle plan to make sure I get things done like a boss.

I will change. What can I do to make sure that this school year doesn't suck?

Brainstorming now and then heading to bed.